the four right chords can make me cry

we only fight about money these days. i dont know if thats an improvement.

i'll admit that i'm mildly resentful that i cant afford a university education, driving lessons or a car/bike. i know i have a roof over my head, a doggie, my own room. but i've watched too much american tv. now i expect a college education and some form of transport among other things. i guess im being too demanding. selfish?

maybe. but its not as though im asking for expensive branded clothes, the latest handphone, unneccessary things. i just want to go to university. and learn driving. i know the car/bike thing is pushing it. but bikes are cheaper than taking the bus know?!? uni and learning how to drive are pretty important things i would think.

and its not like we're completely broke. or are we?

gargh i hate being middle class. not exactly carefree and yet not poor enough to complain and victimise yourself. heh.

i must find a way to make more money. but once school starts? i dont know if i can cope. i heard life science is a long day, and if i get into USP it will be even worse. will i have time to go work? what about church stuff? it makes me depressed just thinking about it.

the other option is make do with what i got. no laptop, no exchange programme, no hanging out at coffee joints, no eating at nice places, no nice new clothes, wearing the same thing every week, no free time, no hobbies, definitely no partying, no life?

its not so bad right? tell me it isnt, tell me i will get through.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:27 PM